Master Key Experience Week 4 – Press The Reset Button

The past week has been a challenging week. Why is it? Well, it is because I have not developed a consistent habit. I need to train my subconscious mind to create a good habit, for my conscious mind does not have enough brainpower.   Here are some of the things which I’m dealing with. 

1. My DMP submission was late by a couple of hours. 
2. My first chore (ie.service) was not done. (I’m beating myself for it.)
3. My second chore (ie.service) was not done. Now, I realize the 1st & 2nd chore was too big to be to complete in a week.
4. Missed a couple of reading out loud in the evening.
5. Writing this blog is 3 days late.
6. Missed reading a couple of days of reading the Masterkey
7. Missed a couple of days of doing the sits.
8. etc. etc. etc…

Given that I have started off a bad foot, this “bad” habit started to compound and snowball. I am tripping myself. I am not happy. I am beating myself up.

My inner voice is saying to myself that if I can’t do these simple tasks, what is the chance of doing big tasks?

If I don’t get my assignment & task up to date, what is the chance of me getting, finding, and discovering the Masterkey?

Furthermore, if the past weeks I got a lot of value from doing most of the exercises and my confidence started to rise, why on earth would I trip & mess up?

What is the point of continuing on?

At this point, I have the feeling to quit. A molasses of sadness, pity, and despair started to overtake me. 

Personally, I hate quitting. However, a quiet inner voice whisper saying “Despite all of the above issues, try again one more time.” So, when I went for the sit, reading again. My quiet inner voice volume is getting louder. It says to me

1. Press the Reset Button
2. Maybe what I’m experiencing & feeling is part of the journey (ie. this is normal).
3. Go for another iteration. _{(For Innovation Comes From Iteration)}

Innovation Comes From Iteration

So, I am declaring that I’m pressing the RESET BUTTON!

What does “Pressing the Reset Button” look like? When I close my eye and meditate, I notice the tension in my head, entire back, and shoulders are tense. This is about me

• letting go of the head, back, and shoulder tension
• letting go of the Worry that I wouldn’t finish the course
• letting go of the Anger of my scatter mind conscious
• letting go of things has to be perfect for me to get it.

I just need to have faith & trust in myself that everything is perfect and beleive that this is part of a the process.